10.27.19 Do. Say. Love. Now.

 

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There is an old saying that I really love … “There are seven days in a week, and ‘someday’ is not one of them.” I think I love it because I so ardently believe it’s true. There is no such thing as someday – there is only now, and now is fleeting.

Lately I have been second-hand to several tragedies that have left me more than a bit stirred emotionally. This week alone I have heard of five deaths within the outer circle of my inner circle and though they do not affect me personally … they affect me … personally. Because I love. Because I hurt. Because I am cursed with compassion and I cannot disassociate what and who were, for who are no longer.

Sometimes when I hear about death I am afraid, not to die myself, but to miss living somehow. I think of how many days run into other days that spiral inside of my ever-running life that runs me. And though I try to be intentional about time spent with friends and family and faith – I know I fall short of the depth I believe my spirit was meant to pour out.

And so I apologize. I apologize for every time I put off reaching out. Holding on. Staying put. Making time. I apologize for failing to recognize the beauty before me. Above me. Beneath my feet. And all around me. I apologize for using words that weren’t always kind. Or thoughtful. Or respectful. Or necessary.

I need the world to do. To say. To love. And to do so now. There may not be tomorrow, and there is not much left of today, but I will certainly try to be more for the time that remains.

All my love,

Elle

7 thoughts on “10.27.19 Do. Say. Love. Now.

  1. Yes, it is difficult when we have those good intentions, but life gets away from us.
    I had this past 3 weeks off work and was grateful that I would have the time to get so many things done that I just can’t when working full time. I did get a lot done, but the most consuming project never even got started.
    It doesn’t matter because the best parts of the time off was spending it having lunches, coffee, or dinner with friends who I don’t get to see that often. I also got to make a trip to see friends who live justy outside of Saratoga Springs for a few days. People are the MOST IMPORTANT in my life, and I’m so grateful for all the wonderful people in my life.

  2. Your words speak what I can not. Thank you Elle for your boldness to use the gifts that our Lord bestowed onto you. I am grateful to God for having this life with you near me always.

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